Trial of Love

Happy New Year!

I truly hope this year will be happy for you. You are always on my mind, with me wishing you a good life, happiness, and joy. I hope you could enjoy the holidays a little, even with work.

Not much has changed here. I had to spend most of the day after Christmas in the hospital with Dad. Another AFib event that required cardioversion (correct?).  Things not looking great for him coming into the new year. But, I’m sure his happy to have all the attention on him.

Life goes on.

I still dream of the day when life gets easier, love is deeper, and that you’re happy and content.

Love and best wishes always.

Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you and wonder how you’re doing today. I hope you’re well and can find some joy this season.

Love and best wishes always.

I was just remembering a drive home from Boston. It was a fun day. A good drive home. I remember how sweet you taste. –

I’m working tonight – a project on deadline. The tunes are on. Thinking about you……

I haven’t written in a while, but I still think of you often. It seems like forever since you visited.

This has been a hard week. I have some storm damage to my home – trying to get it repaired and cleaned up – and have been making errors at work because I’ve been trying to deal with too much. The adulting stuff sucks.

The good news is that insurance will cover most of the damage (less 20% depreciation of the roof).

I keep wondering how you are doing and what path you’re choosing. Stay? Go? I know it is a hard time for you, but I wish you happiness (and eventually a love that works for you).

Be well, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Sometimes I just want you….

Sometimes only you.

Sometimes I want you to be here.

Sometimes I want to know you miss me. And how?

Sometimes, there just aren’t words to express feelings.

But always, I want you to be happy.

Has it really been 8 years since I was first kissed by an angel? Lots of memories fade, but the memory of your kiss, standing next to your car, remains with me.

It was a rocky road from there. But, I never gave up and was always fighting to have you in my life until you left. And even then, my heart could not let you go. Maybe I’m the fool? Or maybe, I just know love is worth fighting for and worth sacrifice.

I’ve heard people say they don’t want to date because the person will just leave eventually and they don’t want to be heartbroken. I think they have it all wrong. I’m thankful for the time spent with you. Yes, your leaving broke my heart….. but the joy you gave me while you were here was far greater.

I’m thankful for the people in my life while they are here. Yes, I miss them when they are gone, but I would be so much lonelier if I never let you in my life.

I hope your memories are pleasant. Love always.

“It’s hard when you miss people. But you know if you miss them, that means you’re lucky. It means you had someone special in your life, someone worth missing.”
~ Nikki Schiefelbein

I fall in love all over again.

It was great to see you for lunch. It was even better to see you naked, glistening in ecstasy as we made love. (Ok, maybe that part was only in my fantasy.)

The song above has been rattling around in my head since we met.  With so much up in the air for you, I just want you to know there is always love around you. I care about you, and always will.

I finally got a break today (work has been 12+ hours a day trying to make deadlines). A good snow day to sit at home, catch up on messages, and dream about what could have been.

Thank you for making time to see me on your short trip. It means a lot to me. I know there are always demands for your time and attention.

Wishing you peace and happiness – and LOVE.