Author: Him

A story of love lost. Just a guy in love with a woman that doesn't want a relationship with him. She moved away and married someone else. I have shared this blog with her, and she knows the truth. I tried. I waited for a while. But, none of it worked. She is married to someone else now, but still drops into my life now and again. I am trying to move on. But, she was my one true love that inspired me to be a better person. If any of this story has meaning to you, please let me know. Thank you.

The week ahead

I know this week will be tough at times. You have so much happening at once. (no details here)

But, I want you to know that you got this. You are the most courageous and determined person I have ever known. As the adventure continues for you, I just wanted to say how much you mean to me, and how you are always in my thoughts and prayers. You see, I still think we had a great love.

I will always be here if you need me.

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Her 1/25/2017 08:40:00 pm

Sorry I have not been on much to comment! Thank you for having faith in me…More than what I have in myself.

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Baby, It’s cold outside

I never wanted you to cry…. I always wanted the very best for you.

It is below zero outside for the first time this winter, and the house was only 60 when I got home. We’ve got some snow, and I know you sometimes miss it up here. Well, I bet you don’t miss the bitter cold.

I know you don’t have much in plans, but I hope I can help you have a little smile for the holidays. You should know you are missed and thought of often, even if I write less often.

I’ll write again or email soon. Best wishes always.

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Her 12/23/2016 03:37:32 pm

It’s Christmas Adam(because Adam came before Eve-😕) and I miss snow, I miss the cold. I am very lonely and even worse, depressed. I should be excited with the new job and all, but……

I hope Puerto Rico is amazing and you are allowing yourself to find love. It is hard to constantly be searching for something that is not out there. I have learned I am not capable of loving anyone.

Sad, but true!

Random thoughts

I paid bills today. This is the first month in many years that I’ve had to carry a credit card balance forward. I hope I can catch up in January, but it feels tight to only have $117 in cash to last until Dec. 15. (Although I still have plenty of credit).

My sister stopped at my house and suggested I change the light fixture in my bedroom (outdated gold color). My first thoughts were NO! K#&&$ likes the shades….. they’re callie lillies.

Youngest is worring me again… maybe just because its December. I worry he is withdrawing. But, reality is he owes me money and is probable avoiding me until he can pay some of it back.

Its Saturday, and I’m done work for the day. Time to head out for a beer (just one… keeping to a budget – lol). I wish I meeting you at the bar. Lots of memories, including the first time I asked you to come get a drink and you just blew it off.

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Her12/7/2016 08:47:58 am

I had a very long comment writhen, but it seemed like a lot of whining and complaining, so I deleted it. I hope you Wednesday is going well.

Him12/7/2016 12:24:42 pm

I like the long comments

still missing

I know you miss me sometimes. Maybe I don’t want to believe you so I can get away… but mostly I want you to miss me the way I miss you.

I want to you miss my holding you at night. I want you to miss the times we did just the most boring thing together like get groceries, make dinner, do laundry, or just drive home late after work. I want you to miss coffee in the morning, lunch visits, and afternoon surprises. I want you to miss all that is here at home that has always been waiting for you.. wanting you more than anyone.

So yes, I know you miss me sometimes. I still miss you all the time.

Question: Is it safe to send you mail? (not email) Or, will that cause more drama than it’s worth?

P.S. Is your therapist telling you to not follow your heart?

Thankful

I am thankful for every minute I was able to spend with you.

Although Thanksgiving day itself is not great (I mark it as the day you decided to break up), I am thankful for all the times we laughed, the drives we had together, and the nights I held you in my arms.

You saved me once, and I loved you so. We spent many days and nights discussing everything from taxes to dreams. I understand you need to follow your dream and take care of yourself. But I still miss the feel of you in my arms. Thoughts of you in my bed still haunt me.

I am thankful that we can still communicate sometimes, even if only this way. I miss you my love. I hope you enjoy family and have a wonderful day.

this always reminds me of you

 

 

Cold hard bitch
Just a kiss on the lips
And I was on my knees
I’m waiting give me

Not so much the title, but because I feel I am still waiting for you. Just one kiss was all it took for me to fall in love with you.

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Her 11/19/2016 12:35:47 pm

Sorry. And the last time we saw each other, you kissed me!