First, I want to thank you for speaking with me Thursday night and your message on Friday.
Yes, I do want to try and get back together. And I thank you for offering. But, what I want isn’t the issue here. I don’t want it to be false. And frankly, under the circumstances, I would just be more stressed wondering when you are going to leave me again.
If you ever decide you’d like to try again – please don’t be afraid to ask. I love you and I would like to find a way to have a relationship with you that works for you and me. And if you decide it is what you want, then we would be starting in a different place.
But for now, I need to accept the reality that we are not in a relationship and I can not expect you to feel any differently about me. I have stopped carrying the coin that I found after our first few dates. I kept it in my pocket as a constant reminder of your kindness and my love for you. A safety blanket of sorts that reminded me there was someone who cared about me and someone for me to care about.
I welcome your occasional text or comments, but I don’t feel I should be chasing you because I will only make things worse for you and me.
Be well, and know you are truly loved (even if you don’t want it).
