3:30 pm
I feel I’ve made a mistake. It feels like you are withdrawing again, and I’m sure it is because I showed up last night. It seems you only want me (emotionally) when you are hurting. And, when I ease that pain you start to pull away, maybe scared of being too close or afraid I love you too much. I try to remind myself to be grateful for what you give and can give. Meanwhile, I am trying to figure a solution to your living problem – knowing you won’t come live with me. I should RUN. You tell me to run, and today I feel that I am doomed to be the fool. I hope I’m wrong. I love you.
I asked you out for a drink today, but you are working and have no time. You didn’t suggest another time though. I guess I can’t wish my dreams to come true.