Why I can’t seem to get away from home

So, I’ve been doing a lot of research on getting out of state. Although I am done with my responsibilities here (with listing). Other states are far more restrictive. It seems nearly every state in the south is lifetime, and some have other restrictions – mostly housing.

I’ve also been job searching. No luck there either. I may go to Chicago in May and try to beg off a job at a tradeshow. Not sure the cost will be worth the try… but looking at it. I have to see if my local contact is open to the discussion.

Meanwhile, I am needed here. I am exhausted, but I’m glad I am able to be here when he needs me. Just as I wish I was there when you needed me.

As for relationships, I don’t think I deserve to be loved or happy. I’m ok just getting by and not investing in forever or the future. I did that and, honestly, I’m afraid to feel that way again.

Author: Him

A story of love lost. Just a guy in love with a woman that doesn't want a relationship with him. She moved away and married someone else. I have shared this blog with her, and she knows the truth. I tried. I waited for a while. But, none of it worked. She is married to someone else now, but still drops into my life now and again. I am trying to move on. But, she was my one true love that inspired me to be a better person. If any of this story has meaning to you, please let me know. Thank you. View all posts by Him