Thursday, 10 pm
Dearest, we had a good lunch together today. The conversation was a bit deep for a lunch break, but it was good and not sad. I look forward to Saturday and hope we can be together without pressure from me or high expectations.
Therapy today reinforced to me that I may be the fool if I am waiting for you to want a relationship when you don’t want one.
I do fear being the great fool and dying emotionally in this process. I am willing to work on love. I just need you to give us the chance. I don’t know what you really want. You oscillate sometimes between being overly friendly and then saying absolutely no relationship or dating. It is all very confusing.
Will you ever want me? Truly want me – in a relationship? I love you. I will always care for you.