I feel hurt, angry, alone, and hopeless. I’ve been told I’m not loved or lovable – that I am to difficult and demanding to maintain a relationship. I am barely able to hold myself together. Tears come streaming down my face without warning. I long to retreat to bed but sleep escapes me. I drink to numb my mind and body, but the effects are temporary and the tears return.
I can not say or do the right thing. I feel like a failure at all things. I try to show compassion and caring but incite anger. I pray that god delivers me from this hell.
1 Comment: Her – You are loved. You just don’t understand that what is right for you may not be right for me. I have not been happy for a while. I could continue to be unhappy, just to make you happy, but in the end that is unfair to everyone. It is living a lie. I had always said I did not want what you wanted.
I do love you, but it is not the kind of love you had for me. That would not be fair to you. I wish we could remain friends, but that is impossible for you. Where does that leave us? Lonely? Confused? Hurt? Angry? Lost?
All I can do is continue to say I am sorry. 12/02/2014
