Maybe in the next life

I didn’t sleep last night. Just tossing and turning. This seems to be normal now.

Sometimes I write just to get things out. I’m tired of keeping things inside. But, there are many things I must keep to myself. No one would understand my feelings after so long.

There is a part of me that still believes we will be together someday. But, you have made it clear that won’t happen. You are married, and in love. I heard that in your voice last night. Still, I keep hoping for someday. Or maybe in a next life (if there is such a thing).

I also understand that our current situations are not all we hoped they would be.

I can’t help but remember how well we fit together at night. How easy it was to hold you. But, relationships are a negotiation. Get something, give something up. Too bad it seems we’ve both given up frequent sex. (I can’t help but smile when I think about how we were. I hope you enjoyed it.)

So, I understand when you need to vent. I also appreciate your trying to stay positive.

Maybe someday I’ll give up the silly notion of us being together.

Author: Him

A story of love lost. Just a guy in love with a woman that doesn't want a relationship with him. She moved away and married someone else. I have shared this blog with her, and she knows the truth. I tried. I waited for a while. But, none of it worked. She is married to someone else now, but still drops into my life now and again. I am trying to move on. But, she was my one true love that inspired me to be a better person. If any of this story has meaning to you, please let me know. Thank you. View all posts by Him