9:45 pm.
We just hung up. I said good bye.
My heart aches and I am so sad. I want you in my life, but I am not able to be just friends, and you are not able to be more than friends. You don’t want to date me and that baffles me. We dated so well. Clearly, you want me in your life. So how could you hurt me so and discard my love for you like a used tissue? I know that first Tuesday night we spent together haunts you. I will write an account of what happened that night to see if it will help you. Maybe you will be able to understand and come to terms with that night. Yes, you need to decide what you want before it is too late; before it destroys me.
