I’m sorry I couldn’t be the love you need

I’m sorry I was selfish and could only love you if you were only mine. I know you need to be you, and have your own life, but I could only be there for you if you were solely mine.

I’m sorry I didn’t follow you. I wanted to, but as you are aware, I’m deeply anchored here. I’m sorry I am too selfish to leave this place.

I’m sorry I broke your heart. I know I wasn’t kind when you were going to ask me to go on a vacation with you. I was only thinking about myself, and not about your feelings. I lashed out from my own hurt when I should have really listened to you and your needs.

I’m sorry you’re in the shit thick of a mess right now. I always wanted you to be happy, and not miserable. I know that I also put my needs before your. Human nature? Maybe. But I still wish you could find peace and happiness (and I know for you that may mean being single with friends).

I’m sorry you’re so stressed right now. As if the current condition of the world isn’t bad enough, add on relationship problems is just crappy. I hope you keep safe and well.

 

Author: Him

A story of love lost. Just a guy in love with a woman that doesn't want a relationship with him. She moved away and married someone else. I have shared this blog with her, and she knows the truth. I tried. I waited for a while. But, none of it worked. She is married to someone else now, but still drops into my life now and again. I am trying to move on. But, she was my one true love that inspired me to be a better person. If any of this story has meaning to you, please let me know. Thank you.

3 thoughts on “I’m sorry I couldn’t be the love you need”

  1. Which vacation when I wanted you to meet me in ME/NH and I ended up cancelling?

    If you knew I couldn’t stay and you couldn’t leave why did you try so hard to make me feel bad about moving? I’m sorry if I am a bad parent and moved from my children. I was never the parent who had to be in the middle of my children’s lives. I am close to them, but they are adults and they have their own lives.

    This situation I’m in possibly is better with the pandemic. At least I have a reason to sleep in my own room and avoid all intimacy. It’s a lovely life, but I’ll figure it out.

    Remember I’m the horrible cat that people throw out the window…I will land on my feet, clean myself off and move on.

    Why do you have your Twitter account connected to this? After you ok with the world knowing it’s you?

    I hope you are doing well and I hope your kids are well!

    1. Yes, that vacation, and a crusie. I know you are not a bad parent. My being anchored here is more about me than kids. I did not try to make you feel bad about moving away….. I supported you following your dream. (Yes, I wanted you to stay…. and I wanted to make it possible for you to stay. But that would have been staying with me.)

      We are as well as can be expected. Thank you.

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