I hate the gray of November

The gray days, loss of daylight, and the cold wind that chills to the bone. It all reminds me of the cold chill to my bones of losing you. Where did happiness go. Why did love leave? Or was it never here, only an illusion.

After years, I still feel the pain, the loss, and the sorrow. I miss you – but I still don’t know how to get back to when we seemed happy. I hope you are on the road to happiness, the path you wanted. I pray that you are able to be well, happy, and find what you seek – even if it is without me.

I support you in your decision to chase your dreams and live the life you need. If you didn’t love me, there was no reason to try and hang on.

Be well.

Author: Him

A story of love lost. Just a guy in love with a woman that doesn't want a relationship with him. She moved away and married someone else. I have shared this blog with her, and she knows the truth. I tried. I waited for a while. But, none of it worked. She is married to someone else now, but still drops into my life now and again. I am trying to move on. But, she was my one true love that inspired me to be a better person. If any of this story has meaning to you, please let me know. Thank you.

2 thoughts on “I hate the gray of November”

  1. Why did you have to end it like that? Your passive aggressiveness is irritating! “If you didn’t love me, there was no reason to try and hang on” You have moved on. Not only are you dating someone, but you are living together….no matter what the arrangement is. I am sure there is sex involved.

  2. I wasn’t trying to be ‘passive-aggressive’. I should have said, “If you didn’t love me, there is not reason for me to try and hang on.”

    And, yes, I would like to think I’ve moved on, but its more like I’ve found a distraction to keep me from thinking about it.

    Be well.

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