05/04/15
Happiness does not come from being loved. If it did, you would be happy beyond all belief. No, happiness comes from loving someone that accepts your love and returns love to you as well.
I was truly happy in fall of 2014. I felt we were in love. I was happy when you were with me. Not just physically with me. I was happy all the time: at work, at home, at home washing your car while you were at work at the store. So, yes, you made me able to be happy.
As you said, we were comfortable, at least for a while.
05-07-16
I understand you can not be happy with me. And that, is sad. I do truly hope you can find your happiness. Of course, I wanted you to find that with me. And although I understand you can’t find it here, I still wish you could. The human part of me doesn’t want to see you happy until I am happy. But then if I think about you being unhappy, it makes me feel worse – like a heel.
And I choose to chase love, go for the dream.
Of course, I am just like you. I had that decision to make once as well. It did not work out, But I don’t regret it. I have some of the sweetest and fondest memories of my life from my time with you. You opened me up to the possibility of what truly being in love can feel like. Unfortunately, I do think you were the one great love of my life and I can never see anyone else replacing you.
