8:30 pm.
You asked me if I was staying in town to watch the fireworks. I said I wasn’t and tried to call you, but you didn’t answer. I feel alone and betrayed. You didn’t respond to me tonight, and I fear you are out (on a date?). I know you wouldn’t tell me, but I should have seen the signs. Last night saying you didn’t want me to feel like you were using me. The text message this morning that sounded more like guilt. Not answering now and never promising to talk later. I feel you are dumping me again and the feeling sucks. Did you use me? The gifts I gave were given freely. But did you use me for your own emotional support. Do you only want me when you are sad? You seem to only want to have fun with someone else. I feel so stupid and foolish. I am too horrible a person to be loved. I would have been better off not answering your call last week.
