Do I believe you care? You say you love me. You say you care. You even said I shouldn’t give up on you – on us.
Yes, I want to believe. I want to believe so much. But every time I believe, you tell me you can’t be with me and don’t want a relationship.
I received your letter today and you signed it “love…” But is it love? I want so much to believe you care and can love me…. but it just keeps getting ripped away.
I try to keep myself open to you. Available to you if you ever want me. But sitting by myself in loneliness and despair, not knowing if you well ever call or come back to me is taking its toll.
You wrote that you don’t think you are waiting for something (someone?) better, but waiting for things to be better between us. How do things get better between us if we don’t see each other? Unless better between us means not seeing each other to you.
I know you want me to care. I just don’t know if I dare to hang on, to believe anymore. I don’t know how many tears I have left.
