I am the past, a memory,
soon to be distant and faded.

This is where you come from,
not where you are going.

Perhaps a lesson learned,
or a feeling awakened.

May you always have love in your life
as you move away from here and to your future.

If history repeats itself,
I hope you repeat a journey with me.

I will truly love you
for the remainder of my life.

You asked if I would forget you. Stop thinking about you. I told you I could never forget you and that I think about you every day. And maybe there will come a time where I don’t think about you every day, but only some days. Maybe there will come a time when my heart doesn’t ache for you – but that time seems impossible.

But, will you forget me? Will you move away and erase me from your thoughts? Will you stop thinking about me? I know you have a lot going on and both the excitement and fear of moving can be overwhelming.

I will not forget you. I haven’t stopped loving you.

I say I love you because I am trying to comfort you. I wish you could feel secure in that. I say I love you so you feel cared about, cared for, and know that you are lovable and deserve to be loved.

And because I love you, I will support your moving to a new life and and new employment. I know you need to this.

And no, you don’t need to ask if you fail will I rescue you – for two reasons. First, you won’t fail. You may struggle and be unhappy at times. But, I believe in you and I know you are a strong person – stronger than me. I know you will succeed.

And secondly, of course you can come back any time you want. I would never turn you away. But I won’t be hoping for failure to get you back.

I can’t stop lovin’ you
And no matter what you say or do
You know my heart is true, oh
I can’t stop lovin’ you

Oh, I’m twisted and tied
And all I can remember
Is how hard we tried
Only to surrender

And when it’s over
I know how it’s gonna be
And true love will never die
No, not fade away

I can’t stop lovin’ you
And no matter what you say or do
You know my heart is true, oh
I can’t stop lovin’ you

I was so wrapped up in my own hurt, feeling rejected by you that I never considered you would feel rejected by me. I am sorry. I love you and never meant to hurt your feelings.

1 Comment:

her 6/26/2015 10:46:02 pm
Maybe someday you will look beyond your hurt and realize that you can’t always use that as an excuse to treat others poorly. Maybe one day you will say….I know I hurt, but maybe it is more than about me. Maybe I need to stop hurting others.

I have been very clear about my feelings and I know they are not similar to yours, but you cannot go into a relationship expecting the other person to change and be who you want them to be. Or feel the way you want them to feel. I cannot change you and you cannot change me.

Yes, no matter what happens…..I am leaving no later than 7/31.

And now I guess you have declared you don’t want to hear from me again.

There is one thing that has not changed – my feelings for you. I love you, and in some ways I always will. I don’t know what prompted you to send that text message. I replied to your earlier message and wished you well.

Be safe and be well. May you find all that you are looking for.

Or, more that you would want to be stuck with me.

I was trying to look past you, focus on the wall, so I wouldn’t have to look into your eyes. I didn’t want you to see my sadness.

I’m glad you passed your certification exams. I wish you the best.

All I have heard from you in the past three weeks is how much you don’t want to be with me and that you give up. Why should I keep trying? You said I don’t have the balls to say its not working – you already said it. ITS NOT WORKING!

So, I don’t know what to do but just let you disappear from my life, try to move on and keep myself busy to try and not think about how much I love you and miss you.