Month: February 2018

I am waiting to hear from my son this morning – waiting to be sure he is alive. He is supposed to return to work today, but they may fire him (if they haven’t already) or not have him scheduled to work. His paperwork has been a nightmare because of the lack of mental health professionals in this area.

Today is a holiday, so that may complicate things further. We don’t know if his doctor sent the paperwork last week (was supposed to send it), and we don’t know if anyone is at work to process it, but today was the deadline to submit it.

It just sucks not knowing what is going on, what to expect next, or even what might happen today.

Thank you for your prayers. When (if) things get better, I’ll let you know.

I suck. I should have waited longer.

I can’t get you out of my mind or heart. I am truly conflicted and that is not fair to you either. I love you and I want you to be happy. I don’t know how to reconcile us as we are to how I feel. I also don’t know what is possible or how things might change.

All I can say is don’t pass up a chance at happiness and love waiting for me.

Would it be easier for you if I stopped contacting you? I saw your FB post about moving on and leaving behind unavailable men. I’m guessing I’m firmly in that category.

I do love you and care about you deeply. Somehow, our timing never worked out. We just never connected when it was right for both of us. I still hope that is possible someday. But its not fair to ask you to wait for me to change things.

You’ll always be in my heart.