I hate the gray of November

The gray days, loss of daylight, and the cold wind that chills to the bone. It all reminds me of the cold chill to my bones of losing you. Where did happiness go. Why did love leave? Or was it never here, only an illusion.

After years, I still feel the pain, the loss, and the sorrow. I miss you – but I still don’t know how to get back to when we seemed happy. I hope you are on the road to happiness, the path you wanted. I pray that you are able to be well, happy, and find what you seek – even if it is without me.

I support you in your decision to chase your dreams and live the life you need. If you didn’t love me, there was no reason to try and hang on.

Be well.

I fall in love with you every time I see you

I fall back in love with you every time I see you. It’s like we pick up right where we were. Somehow all time stops and we just start up right where we were.

My heart breaks every time you leave. Not as much as before, but the pieces shatter a little more, the parts get harder to bring back together. Somehow, I still have strong feelings of love for you. I don’t think those will ever go away. I just try to let them rest in the back and not charge to the front of my existence.

It was good to see you, but not to see you unhappy. I wish I was the one that could bring you happiness. I tried (and tried). Somewhere, there is the happiness you desire and deserve.

I’ll be here, when you need an ear to rant to, or just want to know that yes, someone cares. I’ll pop up unexpectedly to brighten your day. But, I’ll try to not be a nuisance.

You have my love always. Smile. And charge on.

P.S. You still need to update your LinkedIn profile