Month: March 2017

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3/22/17 – Her: I unfriended you on FB. I know it will piss you off. I feel like I need to sensor things, or delete people’s comments because I don’t want you to get hurt. I posted last night that I fell in love. I realized even though I have fallen in love with me and my life, I didn’t want that post to hurt you. I was going to delete, but then I thought “it is my page, I shouldn’t have to worry about what I post”. I do worry. I don’t want to make you sad if you see pictures of me doing things. I don’t want you to hate me….

Not pissed of, just hurt beyond belief. Time to run away.

What can I do? I want you to be happy, especially when you think of me. I don’t want to make you sad. So, what can I do?

Your happiness means a lot to me. As does your health and wellbeing. Love…

I’m glad you’re having fun. It’s about time.

I was backing off from texting and emailing you this week. Just as I need to be careful to not grab at stings that only pull my heart but lead nowhere, I understand you don’t need me pulling you back to home when you’re not coming back.

I am truly happy that you are finding happiness and success. You deserve it, all the happiness life has to give.

Love, always and forever.

P.S. Feel free to messenger any time

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Her 3/21/2017 05:19:27 am

As usual I feel like shit. You call and text, yet I am the one who feels guilty. I had a very long comment that I deleted. It was the same thing I always say. Reading a book called Everything Happens for a Reason.. .. It is very insightful.

I’m sorry about today.

I love you. I always will, but I understand you need to be you.

I can’t stop wanting you. That feeling that somehow we should be together, in some way, has never left me. Since the first day we chatted at your work (November 2013?) I’ve been drawn to you. It took me no time to fall in love with you. You were so open to me.

This feeling doesn’t leave me. No matter how much I try to move on or “get over it” I just feel like someday it has to happen.

I was alone last night and I only wanted to call you. I am alone again tonight. Should I text? I’m feeling like I’m bothering you.

Every time I think I’m getting used to living without you… I realize I want you more than ever. But, I want more than photos and texts. I want to be the one that you feel beside you at night. I want to be the one you meet for a drink and smile. I want to be the one you want.

I still love you. And, I miss you so much. I’m afraid the of how I will feel when you find someone else. I want you to myself. And, sometimes you want me… and that keeps me going.

I realize I am Leonard to your Penny, but without the happy ending.

Please, think of me every so often, and remember, I always wanted to make you happy.

I thought about texting you so many times today. I hope you are feeling better. I’m alone, and stuck thinking about how we once were.

Missing you… good night.