Month: January 2017

In all of my self-centered world, I’ve prayed many times asking God to keep save and guide the people I love. This week many prayers have been answered.

You are well on your way to fulfilling your dreams of career, safe living, and independence you seek. My family had been kept safe in the face of adversity many times this year. And, while life could always be better or easier, I still am able to keep a roof over my head and meet my obligations. So, I thank God for all the good that is happening. I’ll still pray for safe-keeping, your success, and reunion. With gratitude.

I love you and it brings me joy when you are happy. I am sorry I don’t always make you happy. Be well and may you find some happiness every day.

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Her 1/29/2017 07:20:08 pm

I posted today and reposted one that you said was not there! I hope I didn’t ruin things for you!

Her 2/7/2017 03:36:35 am

I am surprised you have not posted in a while. I have some questions for you…… is it fair for to see me when I am home? For J? Will you tell her? What are you expecting? I think we need to figure this out, before see me. I need to know….

I went back through a number of old posts, and the first post of this blog still holds true.

My heart aches. My eyes water. I miss you and I so badly wanted love… I just keep thinking about your kiss, about holding you. I am devastated!

I miss you.

I made you sad. Yes, I’m an asshole.

I sometimes want you to be sad and homesick. I want to you wonder why you left, and how you’ll get back home. I want you to want to come home to me. So, yes, I like it that you miss me, and I wish you missed me enough to want to come home. But, I know that isn’t likely.

But, I don’t ever want to be the reason you’re sad. I want you to be happy. I really do. Of course, I wish you had been happy with me. Maybe someday…. because if we are really meant to be (as I often think), it will happen.

Life continues, but my feelings haven’t changed. I miss you and love you.

And lately, I really miss holding you all night.

Good night, and I look forward to talking sometime soon.

Hi,

No, not really. But not all that bad, thanks. I have a cold that won’t get going. Yesterday youngest son called and is facing a problem. The pain and fear in his voice put me into a mood I haven’t felt since you un-friended me on FB.

But, we will get through it. The good news is, it is only money. No one will loose their life or freedom. No bodily injury. Just foolishness that did some damage (and, just really an accident from him not knowing better).

However, I was feeling really down in the dumps. But, I’ll pick myself back up and get going.

Meanwhile, my thoughts are with you and all you need to do this week and next. I hope you got my mail. I know it is not that important in the face of all you have happening right now. But, when I have problems, I just look at all you have overcome to be your own person, and I rally on. Someday….

I know this week will be tough at times. You have so much happening at once. (no details here)

But, I want you to know that you got this. You are the most courageous and determined person I have ever known. As the adventure continues for you, I just wanted to say how much you mean to me, and how you are always in my thoughts and prayers. You see, I still think we had a great love.

I will always be here if you need me.

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Her 1/25/2017 08:40:00 pm

Sorry I have not been on much to comment! Thank you for having faith in me…More than what I have in myself.

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