Month: August 2016

I wish it was me. I have often thought about how to contact you… how would you take it. But, it seems I am more likely to make you sad than make you happy. I miss you greatly, and look forward to seeing you someday when you visit “home”.

I am always thinking about you, and wish you could find what you need in a way that makes you happy and loved. Even though I was not that one that sent you that gift, it was nice you thought it might be me. (or maybe I’m delusional and was hoping you wanted it to be me).

Still hopeless….

2 Comments

her 8/27/2016 03:58:17 pm
Yes, I had hoped it was you. I want to be missed. I am sorry I cannot be in VT. I am sorry I cannot be in a relationship.

him 8/29/2016 05:08:42 pm
you are missed – all the time.

 

 

Well I get so lonely when I am without you
But in my mind, deep in my mind,
I can’t forget about you
Good times, and faces that remind me
I’m tryin’ to forget your name and leave it all behind me
Yeah. It’s been such a long time, I think I should be goin’, yeah
And time dosn’t wait for me, it keeps on rollin’
There’s a long road, I’ve gotta stay in time with
I’ve got to keep on chasin’ that dream, though I may never find it
I’m always just behind it.

2 Comments:

her 8/10/2016 09:44:05 am
I am sorry you had to meet me. No one deserves that sort of punishment….

her 8/10/2016 09:44:42 am
I will not bother you any more….

Yesterday was a year since I packed you up and you moved away. You finally said good bye.

It has been a year of loneliness, tears, false hope, and frustration. No matter how hard I try, I am not the one you will love.

Everywhere I go I have memories of us together… but just memories. No longer hope.

You said some disturbing things yesterday. I hope they are exaggerations. But I can not rescue you when you don’t want to be rescued. Maybe you are just checking to see if I still would? But yes, I wonder if I am being played with, like a cat plays with a mouse – just an amusement.

So, you said it…”goodbye”. I hope you at least got some good memories from me.

I was never your prince charming. Try as I might, I could never make you love me.

It really hurts to hear you unhappy and in pain. I try my best to do what ever I can to make you want to come back. It will never work. I try to help, but you don’t want my help. You see it as too complicated, but really it seems just not what you want.

I don’t know what you want from me or with me. I try and try to navigate the extreme loneliness in my soul. I reach out to you but it makes me feel even more lonely. When you reach out to me, I get false hope.

I loved you beyond all comprehension. I have offered everything I have. I offered to move for you. I was willing to give you all I have, every part of me. At least you were finally honest and let me know you could never love me.

Take care of yourself. Have respect for yourself. You are a wonderful person and deserve the love you need. I’m sorry I could not be that love. You will always be in my heart until its last beat.