Month: July 2016

I get it.

You saved me once, but I don’t think I can save you. God knows I tried many times. I don’t think you can save me anymore. There is too much distance, too much hurt in the past.

Yet I still want you. I am the fool. But I know you will never come back. Your “loan” is evidence enough. I am the worse devil. My deal was worse than a loan from *****.

I still wish you happiness and safety.

Trying to move on——- my heart still stuck on you.

 

 

I dreamt about you nearly every night this week
How many secrets can you keep?
‘Cause there’s this tune I found that makes me think of you somehow and I play it on repeat
Until I fall asleep
Spilling drinks on my settee

 

(Do I wanna know)
If this feeling flows both ways?

(Sad to see you go)
Was sort of hoping that you’d stay
(Baby we both know)
That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can’t say tomorrow day
Crawling back to you
Ever thought of calling when you’ve had a few?
‘Cause I always do
Maybe I’m too busy being yours to fall for somebody new
Now I’ve thought it through
Crawling back to you

So have you got the guts?

I’ve been missing you. It was nice to text a little on Friday. But, there is some truth in this song….. my heart still belongs to you.

1 Comment: her 7/22/2016 08:35:18 pm

Funny…..you never liked it when I played it. I don’t drink anymore, but yes I think of calling. This week has not been good, so it is best I don’t call……

I’ve been writing this post for a while… somehow it still seems not done – like the two of us.

• She is the one I fell madly in love with;
• She is the one that opened her world to me;
• She is the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with;
• She is the one I could imagine growing old with;
• She is the one I gave my all;
• She is the one I tried to make a better life for;
• She is the one I kept going back to;
• She is the one that rocked my world;
• She is the one that broke my heart – not once, but twice;
• She is the one I tried to get back;
• She is the one that didn’t want me;
• She is the one I helped move away;
• She is the one I try to get back;
• She is the one I would help any time;
• She is the one that doesn’t want me;
• She is the one I need to let go;
• She is the one I will always love;
• She is the one I will never forget;
• She is the one I would still help.
• She is the one that made me whole.
• She was my angel.

I went to a concert last night…..music was ok. A bunch of oldies that my sister wanted to see.

The second song of the set took me by surprise how it made me think of you. I haven’t been able to shake you out of my head all night.

 

I keep forgettin’ we’re not in love anymore
I keep forgettin’ things will never be the same again
I keep forgettin’ how you made that so clear
I keep forgettin’ it all

Every time I hear
How you never want to live a lie
How it’s gone too far
And you don’t have to tell me why
Why you’re gone and why the game is through