Month: June 2016

Although we’ve never spent this date together (I don’t think I’ve ever even seen you on this date), it is very special and to be celebrated.

It is a celebration of the joys, love, and happiness you bring to the world. You saved me, taught me that love is still possible, and brought me more joy than you will ever know.

I miss you my friend. I hope you are well and smile today.

I know you are where you need to be…. finding your way in your own way.

I understand, even though I miss you a great deal (and regret you could not be with me). I hope I do see you in on your next visit. I’m sure it will be hard and possibly sad. But not seeing you would be worse.

I will always hold you dear in my heart. I loved you.

1 Comment: her 6/26/2016 03:37:20 am

Thank you for the birthday card. I am still trying very hard to get through the month of June. It is a struggle…..

6/11/2016

We both write about our struggles to find our way to a love that fits us.

I am sorry I screwed up your life. I hope you find all the happiness I know you deserve. I will always care about you.

1 Comment: her 6/12/2016 06:24:20 am

WHY do people feel the can decide how I feel, what I think and what they have done to change my life?? Please, you don’t get to take the credit for screwing up my life. I did that.

I have a new job, better paying. I am going to start saving money…..I have decided I am going to move in the spring. May 2017. Don’t ask where, because I don’t even know yet.

I always tried to be with you, but I always wanted you to be with me……

Why do I want you? Simply love…..complicated, messy, irrational, sometimes needy, and occasionally wonderful.

When we are together, I feel we fit together. Even when you were saying you didn’t want to be with me (at my sisters), there was an undeniable bond between us. A bond I tried to keep, and one you tried to break.

But, I am selfish, and always wanted to you to be with me…. and only me.

I saw you are planning a fall trip. That from someone that never wanted to plan anything in advance (with me?). Maybe we’ll be ok by then and can say hi. I don’t think I’ll ever stop caring about you or stop loving you… but as you say… I need to stop being in love… and that is slowing ebbing away.

Be well. I hope you find that happiness you seek.

1 Comment: her 6/5/2016 05:04:11 am

Have you ever read my blog and yours and noticed the vast difference? Yes, my reunion is in September, I will be there for a week. I would like to say hi, but I don’t want to destroy the progress you are making…… I will leave it up to you.

Have you ever heard of the front porch theory????