All I have heard from you in the past three weeks is how much you don’t want to be with me and that you give up. Why should I keep trying? You said I don’t have the balls to say its not working – you already said it. ITS NOT WORKING!

So, I don’t know what to do but just let you disappear from my life, try to move on and keep myself busy to try and not think about how much I love you and miss you.

Make no mistake. This is not about easy. It is not easy to see you go – either because you are moving or because you just don’t want me. What ever we were, the only thing for sure now is we were… past tense… no longer.

I loved you will all I had, but I have come to see in the past weeks that I have only been a distraction, a convenience, to you. I know you were never able to truly love me. I know you tried for a while, but it just wasn’t there – and still isn’t.

But is this really about making it easier? Maybe its about making it easier for you.

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her 6/2/2015 12:07:29 pm
I have always said it will be easier if you let me go. I also said I don’t want a relationship. Has it been easy for me walking away? No. Luckily I have been so busy with work that I go home exhausted. So exhausted that I am physically I’ll. I am eating Rolaids by the handful and migraine medicine daily. You do not know how I feel or think, so you have no right to judge me, just as I cannot judge you. Are you wrong because you want something different than I do? No, its just that, different. So easier, it is not! Do I feel you were pouty and childish….yes. But again, it is my perception.

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I’m lost again. I don’t where, if anywhere, I stand with you. You made it clear you wanted to be away from me, that you needed space. So I give you space and don’t bother you. When you contact me I respond because I want you in my life. But, the first response back is a slap in the face; “it was no beach”. I am sorry I ruined you beach plans. I tried to make it up to you.