Month: November 2014

Not a two way street. I didn’t kiss anyone else and I didn’t stop loving you.

I am not surprised you broke up with me, but I am still devastated. Its all I can do to function. You have sent email and a few texts – but I fall apart every time I see your name on my phone.

I brought your stuff to you so you wouldn’t need to come here. I know you didn’t want to face it.

I am not sorry I love you. I still think it is the right thing, even if you can’t love me. I should know by now that I am not lovable.

I wish you well, but I need time to try and recover from the pain. I’m sure I will see you, and I will want to try and engage you in conversation, but it won’t work for now.

I just need a little time and space to get used to being alone again.

You said the other day that I was being distant. I felt you were being distant and have been distant for some time. I have been trying to just take it as it comes and not push.

I know you have lots on your mind and going on in your life that doesn’t involve me (but I do care about). I have been trying to give you the space you asked for when you came back from vacation.

Lately it seems I am bothering you. You no longer seem to want me to visit during the day and don’t seem to care to chat, talk, or really be together. I tried to engage you today on Facebook and by text. I know you were resting, but your comment that you had to be really bored to text me just cut the wrong way.

The distance to go your house tonight was not an issue for me. Even though you would be asleep when I arrived, I still wanted to come up just to ride to work together. But I get the feeling (strong feeling( that you just don’t want me around. I hope I’m wrong.

I do love you. I think there is something here worth working to keep.

1 comment: Her – Yes, I am.distant. Its because I feel I am somewhere that I am not sure I want to be. You know you want and I am starting to feel you expect me to be in the same place as you….I am not. 11/15/2014